I often get so consumed with self doubt I wonder how I accomplish anything! I have had a lot of big events going on lately and satan has been taking advantage of this weakness in my life. I doubt that I can really have an impact on people, I doubt that I am capable of doing things the right way, and I even doubt God's will for my life. It just takes one tiny seed of doubt that seems to in my case grow into a choking vine. I wonder what my life looks like from the outside.... am I putting on the smile just enough to cover all of Satan's lies that I tend to believe?
I am always wanting to help and give in any way that I can. I have figured out that this is one of my Gift's from the Lord... I guess I have more I just haven't figured that out yet. But I am more of a "helper" than a leader. At least that is what I have believed.
I am providing Thanksgiving meals for 8 families that would not have it otherwise. I have been wanting to do this for so long! It is so exciting and I know that it will be a huge blessing to the families! The person that was supposed to help me deliver these meals will not be able to help now and I am basically freaking out a little.... ok a ton. I would really like a huge baseball bat to take a whack at satan perched on my shoulder right about now. He loves taking this opportunity to tell me that I will be failure, that I should just give up, & that It's not worth it. Lucky for me I am very aware of his ways. After hours of crying... ya I am a little dramatic at times, I put my foot down! I can do this & I will make this happen! God is way bigger that me & he will give me the confidence & strength to do this. So what if I am so nervous I want to jump out of my skin... it is worth it to have the opportunity to share the Love of the Lord!!
For every lie satan whispers in my ear I will shout back the Truth found in The Word!
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
2 Corinthians 12:9a
"Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near God and he will come near you." 1 Peter 4: 7-8a
"I can do everything through him who gives me strength."
I know that I CAN make a difference in the world, I know that I CAN do anything with God on my team & I know that I CAN succeed. This all helps me to know that I can tell satan & his lies to go to ... well you know where ;)